birthday gift ko kay beatrice… =) …
nakakasira ka ng ulo…
its been…
5 days if im not mistaken…
for 5 days!
wlang kahit anong communication between the two of us…and i cant stand it!
tangina…
i dont know kung ano nagawa ko kya ka nagkakaganyan…
all i know is…i have done nothing against your will for you to be upset….
i just really miss you!
if its only possible for me to go to manila everyday then i would do it!just to see that smile on your face…
but sadly i cant…
i miss you and i only hope that you miss me too…
random thoughts….
“nasa diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa….”
she said….”if we were meant to be together then GOD will make a way…”
so…it definitely contradicts that saying…
kasi GOD is only there to guide us…
so in the end us humans are still responsible for making it happen….
right???
day1
beatrice had already moved in to her dormitory somewhere in navarra st..
(near UST…)
hatid ko dapat xa sa lipa…
plan kasi dapat eh…
hatid ko sya sa lipa then meetup with trina para si trina yung maghatid sa kanya sa manila…
kasi for sure…d naman papayag si beatrice na ako maghatid sa kanya sa manila…
and samahan pa din kasi ni trina si beatrice na bumili ng supplies sa dorm nya….
but then…hindi natuloy yung plan…badtrip…
hindi kasi pinayagan si trina na samahan si beatrice….
nakakainis…
d ko na din tuloy nahatid si beatrice sa lipa…
ang dami pa naman nya dala na gamit…tsk
another thing is….
hindi pa din kasi nmin alam ni trina kung san exactly ung dorm nya…
all we know is located un sa navarra st. somewhere near ust…
if im not mistaken 2 blocks away from pacific….
miss ko na si beatrice… :(
bernard
06-14-10
06-09-10=9(its not a mathematical equation…)
june 9 2010
there are a lot of things that happened this day…
but nothing seems to have come as i expected it to be…
this day was supposed to be our ninth monthsary….
these past few days…
i have been hoping that…
something good might happen…
something miraculous…
something that would make things right…
but…its 10:59 on my clock…
just over an hour before this day finally ends…
and still there’s no sign that things might eventually change….
last christmas…i gave her a shirt….
its not that pricey…*that is if you would ask…or wonder…
but the thing is…it was a gift from me to her…
and then…
this afternoon…i saw someone wearing that shirt…and i know that was the exact shirt that i have given her on christmas…
ive only seen her once wearing it…
and that was on my birthday….
what im thinking is…why would she let other’s use it…
doesnt it have any sentimental value to her?
because…everything (big or small) that she had given to me…
i have given it sentimental value…
i took care of it all…
nobody can even touch or use it aside from me or her…
but then…
what’s up with her?
its not that im mad or something….
i was only wondering…why?
i saw her this evening….
i wanted to greet her…
but then…she just passed by me…avoiding any kind of contact…
i dont know if she’s just doing it because its supposed to be a memorable day for us…
i really thought that everything was gonna be according to plan…
but then..it was all but a big DISAPPOINTMENT….
bernard
06-07-10
nakita ko si beatrice kanina…
she had her haircut…
she looks really good in her new haircut…
sobrang naiinlove na talaga ako sa kanya…
malapit na ang 9…
tsk…
i hope something good happens on that day…
bernard…
some say…if you really do love someone…you should learn to let her go…eh tangina mahal mo nga eh!bakit mo pakakawalan?
why not ipaglaban mo till the end!kahit magmuka kang tanga!basta mapakita mo na totoo ka!
second chances…
is it really the last chance to make it right?
why cant there be a third chance?
or fourth or fifth or sixth..
hell why not just give them another chance…
like for example…
in a relationship you had a fight…
1 of you messed up…
like he was jealous for example…
then the two of you broke up
but then you give him another chance…
and later on you had a fight again…
but with a different reason…
does that mean he doesnt deserve another chance?
hell no!
he has reasons!for god sake…
he was jealous for he was afraid of losing you!
he didnt want you to have vices for its bad for your health even though he has vices…
he only cares for you!cant you see it!
LOVE as we know has no definite description or meaning…
but why cant you see that in those simple things…
he’s already showing you that he really LOVE’s you…that he cares for you so much that’s why he is giving you limits..
why the hell cant you realize that?
its so freaking simple!
you dont need be a college graduate or a master’s degree holder to realize that…
correct me if im wrong…
but the way i see it…
all you need to have is LOVE for that person to understand that all those things was for your own good…
all that he wanted was for you to be a proper woman whom he can take to his parents and be proud that you are the lucky girl whom he has chosen to be his partner for the rest of his life..
i love you beatrice…
thoughts of bernard….
05-31-10
